2 out of 3

Monday was a bust but I did make the gym for combat yesterday and pump this morning. I went super light on the weights and its not even noon and I'm sore.....hm not good.
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5 guys

My lucky day, Brian had to wait for his truck to be serviced and thus I had a helper for my Costco run. We finish, and 5 guys burgers and fries just happens to be right there and I've never been there. GUT BOMB! Good but wow! The best part is I looked at my watch to realize I needed to head straight to my OB apt. SUPER.... Nothing like weighing in after eating a burger and fries. I'm here in the waiting room really wishing I'd had an apple for lunch. I remembered the socks so my feet don't freeze but forgot to bring a book. Let the wait begin.
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Just Suck in that belly...

You girls know you reach a point when pregnant that you can no longer 'suck in'. I'm not quite there but today I pulled on my ski pants...keep in mind I bought these pants two years ago during my skinniest days. I love these pants and jacket the goes with them, I've never been the ski bunny but they're at least cute. I fear I will not be even close to cute this year. I did 'suck in' and get the pants done up and made 3 glorious runs. After unzipping the pants and breathing again I realized that would be the last run this year for those pants. Time to pull out the stuff that used to be to big and sooo doesn't match.
To report, Sunday and Monday I shoveled and snow- blowed my driveway and my neighbors (this for sure counts as exercise in my book). Tuesday rest. Wednesday treadmill run and today I'm thinking those three runs had some leg burn and that's good enough. Enjoy your weekend. Be Good!
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Repentance

Ok sorry for the whine yesterday. Its 6:37am and I just finished my pump class. Its a balmy warm 15 degrees. Happy Friday. Have a great weekend!
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I'ts my party...

How does the song go? "It's my party and I"ll cry if I want to, cry if I want to" I need to change the lyrics.."It's my blog and I'll whine if I want to...." A.M. workout FAILURE! Ya so I turned off my alarm and went back to sleep, no swim for me this morning. I had fresh glorious sheets on my bed last night. Rems crawled in about 1am....stink...my nose can't handle it. I went downstairs to the guest bedroom. About 2am Zoe crawled in bed with me. At 2:30 she needed to go potty. At 3:00 I needed to go potty. At 5:00 when the alarm went off. FORGET it! To add insult to injury I've got a cold. I called to see if I could take some EmergenC to try and head it off before it got worse...NOPE direct quote "that product is not tested during pregnancy and your body good boost your immune system into aborting your fetus" What the? Oh my. I guess I'll skip the VitaminC. Next I had to ditch my work Christmas party because the thought of finding a sitter on a school night after running home from parents day at Karate was more than I could handle. We went to Boston's for dinner. SO GROSS the grease smell from the chips and dip was more than I could handle. I came home to meet Roid yes Hem.Roid. Oh My gosh! So early in the pregnancy this is WRONG way WRONG! Now I've committed to 'moving everyday' and yes I did it! I put on my noise cancelling headphones DRAGGED my bum to the treadmill and cranked the tunes and forgot for a BLESS-ED 30 minutes my misery. So thankful for those noise cancelling headphones!

Don't faint

Yep I actually made the 5:30am pump class. CVS test today. I'll get to see the little peanut and in about 5 days know if it's a boy or girl. Happy Tuesday!
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Damn the Nausea

Welcome back, if you're new to receiving this email, it's sent from my fitness blog. I need you people to keep me accountable. I have decided ignorance is bliss and I am officially ignoring the scale during this pregnancy. HOWEVER that is not a permission slip to gain a 100 pounds.


When you are fighting the nausea 24/7 and awake every hour to potty or put a child back in bed...working out at 5am isn't working. The funny part about this nausea is that when I'm working out I feel good, it's just before and after I feel like crap. EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES. Am I really that wimpy of a girl? I have got to man up, or something, because I need to keep moving EVERY SINGLE DAY! If you caught the 'where are they now' episode of biggest looser last Wednesday I was hit hard by Eric's story. The stud of the EARTH gained it ALL back!!! He is determined to not let his story end this way and to get back in the ring and keep fighting. At some level we all have those little demons in our lives that we have to just keep fighting, defeat is not an option!


So you my friends you need to shout out if you haven't heard from this little blog every couple of days...NO MORE EXCUSES!

I did bfl run on the treadmill and stretch after today. If I crank the 'disturbia' 'pump it' and other such songs it tends to make me forget about the nausea, headaches and sleep deprivation.

Healthy lifestyles

I am sitting here sipping a diet coke with TONS of lemon because its keeping the nausea at bay and my two little ones are eating double stuff Oreos while we all watch a Barney video about exercise and eating right. Hello! What is wrong with this picture?
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I did it!

I hour 31 minutes! Feelin pretty good.
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Half Naked

I am sitting in the OB office tx room half naked and these xlarge paper towels they give you to cover up are not exactly warm. My toes are frozen! Note to self wear warm woolly socks to next appointment.
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No I haven't fallen off the wagon

Two weeks ago at volleyball I sprained my ankle. I've still been exercising but not running. Saturday morning I did 3 miles and it felt pretty good. Saturday afternoon Brian wanted to do a LSD ride (no that is not a drug ride) Long Slow Distance. Well in my book, it wasn't really that slow but it was for sure long, 20 miles is quite a ways for this novice biker chic. It felt great but yesterday I could feel the soreness coming on and this morning my hamstrings and quads were quite tight. I did 3.5 while Zoe was at dance this morning and ended up walking a quarter of it because my legs were so tight and my body kept saying it wanted these calories to grow a baby not jog down the street. I am really hoping this race has a prego ladies division.
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EZ does it

I did 3 miles on the pavement in the cold this morning without stopping. I was slower than snot but didn't stop. Typically I run 4 minutes walk 1. Which my total time ends up faster by 2 minutes....so I'm trying to decide which approach is best. With either one if I'm running with Brian after 5 minutes he looks at me and says "I'm going to go ahead" and he takes off. See ya honey.
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Success - True or False?

I've decided I have a fair share of my own exercise myths and false beliefs that I've held to be true...that maybe are not?
Myth #1 If you exercise and work-out you should be able to see the results in the mirror or scale almost immediately, or at least within the week.

True or False? - I have this cousin and all she did was watch carefully what she ate and she lost 2 pounds consistently every week over a period of 4 months. As much as I would love this the truth is that it's not my M.O. So what should my expectation be?

Myth #2 Little bites really don't count and weekends/vacations/ and parties can be off-set by working out the rest of the week. NOT true! FALSE FALSE and FALSE If Jillian is freaking out over 100 calories of a cup-cake then my Oreos and Cake Balls on Sunday would probably send her over the moon. This is a mental game because I really really like TREATS.

I clearly am a little messed up BUT for now I will define success as not giving up. To hit the pavement, pool, or treadmill even when the scale seems psychotic and the skinny jeans don't fit.

Intensity

I have never followed a season of Biggest Looser and I think I might be hooked. I've always been a Jillian Michaels fan but never have gotten hooked on the show. I've noticed I need to add intensity to all my work-outs. I had an intense run this morning. It was just 3miles and I wasn't fast, but my legs felt like lead and thus it became intense pretty fast. I've gotta go fill out that fabulous food journal....

Excuses

16 miles on the bike and 30 minute swim which included 350 meters in 8:30 But I'm still chubby and yes folks the scale has gone UP! I had perfect workouts everyday last week and the scale has gone up. Now I know muscle weighs more than fat BUT the pants are not slipping off which is what usually happens when I develop muscle. Frickin FRACKER!!! AND to top it off I am my sisters excuse for not working out. Why workout if you're going to gain weight? I totally agree BUT ... I could be retaining water from both workouts this morning (i did weigh right after swimming and my mass of hair was wet) and those chocolate cake balls I ate last night, well those probably didn't help, and oh yea the 4 oreos and milk I had at 4:30 this morning when Remy kicked me out of bed, those didn't help either. I am really trying to make better food choices and drink more water, but clearly I need to do better. Back to the food journal. Jillian says record everything you eat. The food journal is my goal this week. I will put in a plug for the exercise benefits of well-being. I have to say emotionally I felt good all of last week and I know my heart and lungs are stronger. Cardiovascular disease is the number one killer of women and today folks, my HEART emotionally and physically is stronger! (so take that you stupid scale!!!)

Changes 1 out of 2

I did 15 miles on the bike today. Which is about 55 minutes of riding. I need to pick up the pace! I told Brian after yesterdays swim I feel stronger, not skinnier just stronger. He said, "that's good right". I said "no I want to feel skinnier and stronger". Oh well one out of two isn't bad.
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Swim continued...

This morning was much better! I did 300m in 8 minutes. Hairy man was still there, but let's talk about the boys from the high school swim team in the end lane. They were some fine eye candy this morning.
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Hairy-back man

Ok I was not quite on my swim game this morning. I'm not doing lessons again until October so I went to lap swim. Hello did I forget how to swim in three weeks?!!! I could barely breathe. I forgot my elastic and my hair kept popping out of my cap, I forgot my towel and skinny buff bikini girl was getting out of the pool lane as I was getting in. Which brings us to hairy-back man swimming in the lane next to me. This guy is a good 40 pounds over weight wearing his cute mini speedo. Oyi! He starts swimming and holy cow he is Fast! Maybe its all that hair but I had paddles AND fins and he was totally spanking my speed. Seriously?!!? To top the whole morning off, in the locker room (which I typically avoid) they have a full length mirror. HELLo thighs in the ugly swim suit. I don't have a full length mirror at my house. Maybe I need one. I don't need to be the skinny buff bikini girl with the golden braids and plastic head band (who the heck wears a plastic head band to lap swim) BUT I would really like to not cringe passing the full length mirror.
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Calories

I left 600 on the gym floor this morning. Thanks Nat for getting my booty out of bed! Turkey Tri here I come.
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Vacation is over!

I don't even want to get on the scale. I hiked and walked by legs off in Europe but I also ate chocolate chocolate and more chocolate..oh and Bread bread and more bread left and right.....
So 4:45 this morning...(I still have jet lag) I did 12 miles on the bike. It was kind of dark outside...but felt good! Aiming toward more protein and vegies less bread and carbs for a few weeks because I've been on carb overload!!!

Basics and Bad ideas

The bad idea is getting on the scale the morning after yummy japanese food from tempanaki. All that butter, salt, and noodley carbs. And oh before that a weekend of enjoyment eating whatever I wanted. The scale went VRoom right back where we started! SERIOUSLY. Will I ever learn?
The good part of today is that I made it to combat at 530 this morning (thank you Nat!) And I went Big. That should count for something.
So what is the super secret? I (like Steph) don't want to do two workouts a day. I want to go on breaks or vacations and eat yummy food. I want to enjoy going out to dinner. When I figure this out I'm going to write a book and be Super Rich! I'm frustrated and would just like to be rewarded pretty much every day for my efforts...so back to basics because this is NOT how this story ends. I will not give up. I will feel good in my skin!!!!!!!!
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Chh ch ch ch change.

I had a little work get-away the past few days. There is something about taking a 'break' that makes you want to partake of the yummy treats.....especially on a boat with the sun warming your skin. The grapes are good and healthy but somehow dipped in the marshmallow cream cheese dip they taste even better. I kept it to a minimum. Could I have totally abstained...probably, but I was enjoying myself. Which brings me to my definition of healthy and happy. How is that defined? Let's start with 'healthy'. There are those out there that believe "I can believe it's not Butter" is 'healthy' and others that are spouting margarine is a molecule away from plastic and NOT 'healthy'. I am of the opinion that 'going organic' is kind of the latest craze. After reading what I've read it makes sense. There is some very persuasive research out there. When Brian was serving his mission he remembers the NO protein only carb diets were the craze and many elders lost a lot of weight. There is a lot of persuasive research around the High Protein...low carb craze. So what does one listen to? You tell me NO dairy and I start getting defensive. You take away my chocolate or diet coke FOREVER and I might rip your head off. We are deeply attached to our foods. Especially the foods we were raised on. My bff Kath steered me toward the tasty simple healthy blog and this lady is super organic...no white four, nothing refined. etc.etc.etc. She had 8 suggestions on there that were given a week at time and it got me thinking about change. I can't organify my entire life all of my children's eating habits over night. That would be over-whelming and the change wouldn't last. I've decided to take it a recipe at a time, a week at a time and see how I feel. I've decided this route does NOT mean rapid weight loss (bummer), but it does mean permanent change. While on the boat this weekend I looked at some of the pictures with me in them and I thought...ouch! my thighs, my arms...etc.etc. just not quite where I want to be BUT I was strong enough to pull my self out of the water with every wake-boarding or wake-surfing turn I got. Saturday morning I did the 'loop' at the cabin which is 5 miles of monster hills and I did the run portion without stopping. Exercise or nutrition? I think it's both. I will continue with the goal of no refined sugar and no white flour until our trip but I am going to take a weekly focus (borrowed from the good woman's blog) and try to make the 'healthy' changes I can.

Grumpy Wednesday

I was Perfect all day!!! So why by ten at night was I so grumpy because I wanted something sweet! Urrrr. My night time snacker took over and I had some EL fudge about 3 am I barely remember (I was mostly asleep). Damn those little fudge boys. I bought some No Trespassing signs to put on the pantry and fridge. Lol we will see if that helps I got on the scale yesterday and I was down one pound (yay)and today back up one.(Boo) (Prob the night time snack). Still that added to my grumpiness. This shouldn't be so hard. And if I'm eating so healthy shouldn't I have boundless energy and feel wonderful and happy? Where is this grumpiness coming from? I think skinny is more fun that chocolate. But getting to skinny is NOT fun. Bla bla bla. Whine whine whine. I know pedal to the metal and just DO IT. Have a great day thanks for reading!
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Tuesday Lagoon hangover

Do you remember the classic Christmas cartoon about Rudolph and Santa Clause and the big hairy snow monster that lives in the cave? Do you remember the song they sing? "Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you'll be walking out the door". I felt like the big heavy monster on the treadmill this morning. I've never had a drinking hangover but I do believe there is such a thing as Lagoon hangover.
Diary:
(Its now wednesday and I seriously can't remember). I do know the YW gave me a razzleberry pie and a HUGE candy bouquet and I said thanks brought them home and didn't take a single bite! Granted my sister had to talk me off the cliff as I was contemplating how to justify just a little cheat....so naughty! But I was valiant and steadfast and blended up a smoothie. Feels good not to cheat.
Mon- swim and bike- done
Tues - run done
Wed - swim - done
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Monday

I do like Mondays because it is that opportunity for a NEW week, a fresh start to do better in all things. I'm waiting Brian to get back so I can go swim, I read a little Alma 24 while waiting, nothing like a little multi-tasking to get the morning started.
Nectarine
Spinach smoothie
Half piece wheat french toast
Protein drink
Raw unsalted nut mix
Down Syndrome Day at Lagoon
How does one stay good at an amusement park?
Packed pbj on my homemade wheat
Nectarine
2 chicken strips. Minus most of the strip
2 bites of Cams corndog
Banana
Protein drink and bar (while I took him to football)
Avoided dinner all together at the park and finished off my leftover Mediterranean halibut. (Prob not the best choice but better than cookies and milk which is what I wanted.
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Coming Clean

The truth hurts! It is no fun to post this and have to admit I didn't stick to my commitment of no sugar no white flour until sept 3rd. Saturday I crashed and burned when Brian offered to share a snickers with me following a marathon shopping escapade at walmart and costco. I went straight downhill for the rest of the day and since the devil was already sitting on my shoulder he convinced me to blow Sunday as well. UGgggg. Tom is a new day, back on track and I'm sticking to it!!!!
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8-14 I'm a believer

I have not kept the daily inventory of food consumed, I need to get back to that pronto...but the good news is the only slight mishap I've had is a handful of peanut MM's today, and that is because my lovely monthly flow has decided to stick around for the ENTIRE FREAKING MONTH. My ovaries were screaming, I was in the middle of a meeting and nothing else was around. At least they had peanuts and I did stick to ONLY one handful. That's AMAZING for me.

I decided to try a smoothie recipe off the internet that contained spinach. I've known four good people throughout my life that swear by these very HEALTHY smoothies, but I always thought they looked gross! WRONG I love them, crave them, actually prefer them as a desert, AND I think it's helping me to poop twice or more a day (yay for the intestines!)

Recipe for Basic Green

1c. WAter

1-2 Handfuls of baby spinach

2 TB agave nectar or other natural sweetener

2C. fruit of choice

1/2 lemon with peel. (I only use a 1/4 lemon)

Creamsicle Green Smoothie

(pictured below)

1c water

1c plain rice milk

2-3 lg spoonfuls of OJ concentrate

1 lg bunch of baby spinach

1 tsp vanilla

2c. frozen peaches

FAVORITE SO FAR!

Good Golly Miss Molly

The blessed scale finally moved back down four pounds. That pretty much puts me back where I started. I do need suggestions on how to make my night time snacker STAY asleep. I wake up between 2 and 3 am and I'm STARVING!
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8-10

Pre -swim - Nectarine
post -swim and bike - protien shake
Breakfast - Protein Oatmeal
Lunch - Spinach Blueberry Smoothie - Almonds and craisins - whole weat toast with tiny tiny smear of pbj
poolside - grapes, couple bites of apple, homemade apricot leather, 1 thin slice lean ham
Dinner - 3/4 cup chicken shrimp and vegi (left overs from last nights dinner.. I was starving from being at the pool AND whole wheat pasta with vegies and marinara sauce

After an hour at the pool this morning and 10 miles on the bike clearly I was hungry! But I kept it legal!!!

I take it back

I am going to post what I consume. There is something about going back and reading my posts that makes me realize, ...mmmm maybe I'm not as balanced as I think I am.

Weekend?

So much for reporting.....and no one called to give me crap....so the report was it wasn't awful wasn't great. I did a 10 mile bike ride sat morning that was great.
Today I swam for an hour then came home and did the ten miles on my bike.
I've decided to not bore you with the details of what I eat every day but have committed to give up obvious refined sugar and white flour from today to when I leave on this trip. That alone should keep me balanced and under the calorie limit.
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8-6

Ok I suck. I. Thought after 3 days of eating ok and really exercising I would get on the scale and see where things were at??? I gained 4 pounds. What the???? Ok why even try? So this was my pathetic eating day...
Frosted mini wheats and two cookies
The day did get sort of better
Protein shake
Grilled chicken salad and piece of corn bread
Slice wh toast with turkey and baked chips
Half plate eggs and hash browns shared with Rems
Turkey -crackers and half protein drink.

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8-5 p.s.

I realize I did have three cookies today so I did go Big on the work out. 15 min Calis. 35 min jog and 20 min weights.
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8-5

Cookie at 330 am when I was working on tax stuff

Protein Bar
Raw nuts
Chicken breast sand on wheat
Baked black bean chips
Half banana and protein shake
Couple bites of my leftover chicken taco salad
2 more cookies -damn that boy scout that sold us cookie doe for his eagle project

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Monday 8-3

Pre work out:Wh toast with tiny smear of pb
Breakfast: Protein shake -small
Eggs with reduced yolks
Non intentional snack: Half cookie
Lunch:Pulled pork tacos on wheat tortilla with pico and lettuce
Few bites of rice and beans
Snack; handful cherries and half serving crackers
Dinner:milk with plain oatmeal and protein drink
Snack: cucumbers almonds and craisins
Fhe treat small peach rainbow

Am 50 min Swim
Pm 20 min interval run (for the treat)
Water -done
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30 days

I leave for my anniversary trip in 31 days. As 'named' by Steph and one of her docs I have been having a 'Fat Happy Summer'. Ten pounds later the shorts are too tight and the belly is bulging. My goal is to loose ten pounds in the next 30 days. 20 would be ideal but ten is real. I know there are lots of diets out there to starve and take it off quick but I've discovered not eating or cutting out all of one food group does not work for me long term. The weight comes off and then it comes right back. Hmmm I think I am the classic yo yo.
my make it Real plan
1.Write everything down! Every day an honest account of all the things that go in my mouth. (Hopefully this eliminates the small bites of everything I take. That means you will be hearing from me on a daily basis. If u don't your job is to call me txt me razz me.. whatever it takes.
2. Go Big or Go home. Exercise 50 minutes 6 days a week. This can be broken in half if time requires. Also 2 quick minute bursts through the day to boost the metabolism
3. Water water and water. I dug out the water bottle and I need to drain that sucker 5 times a day
4.Balanced vegi carb and protein nothing fried
5. Free day on Sunday. I gotta have a break

Here I go!!!
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Seriously!

I spent the weekend at the Cabin eating everything in sight and drinking all the pop I wanted....came home hopped on the scale and bless us and save us I lost 3 pounds. How the heck does that work? I'm reading Jillian Michael's new book Master your Metabolism. I'll keep you posted.

I wanna be like you ch. #2

I had to run and feed the kids before I finished my last post....Continued shouts out and kudos to Steph because she is the work-out healthy queen and looks smokin hot in a bikini, Megan because she is my height and bone structure and she looks fabulous (thus no height excuses for me) and Leslie because she's a grandma and has killer calves ankles and a tiny tiny waist! Love ALL your bums!!!

I wann be like you.....

So this is my shout out to those I want to be like, because you're doing fabulous work, and look fantastic either via really great genes or working your butt off... Tiff, (29 weeks prego and only gained 14 pounds). Kath,because you're running your butt off and I've never seen you look better. Min, because you've loosing it baby and sticking to your plan. Nat because you go to the gym with me and even though you complain you need an intervention, you have these skinny arms, skinny waist and legs. Katie because you're a buff little thing and I would kill for your pant size. Jenny, Kim and the dozen other girls in my neighborhood, not sure what you do but you look great. FOR THOSE WHO MAY READ THIS. KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE. BELIEVE IT OR NOT I CAN DO THIS.

That so didn't work....

so much for HCG diet...blah. The first ten days was great! Down 14 pounds - that rocked! Then I began to have a bite of this and a bite of that because I was soooo tired all the time. Then to make matters worse I got a UTI which makes you feel like you have the worlds worst cramps and makes it really hard to want to drink water. Add antibiotic.. need food with antibiotic to not feel sick to my stomach. So here I am ten days from finishing the diet and I've now only lost 9 pounds.. That doesn't rock it sucks! I obviously have commitment issues. I have learned a thing or two about myself. I need food for energy, and I need to exercise for energy, or else my life doesn't run, or I can't run my life at the pace I desire. It is good to feel hungry. I don't do this often enough. I do eat too much and that is going to change. I do need to eat more of the better stuff. I need to commit to what I am eating for the day and stick to it, no choice, I just have to do it. The raw truth is that the $$ I've spent on weight loss for body...all work for a short period of time, and then they stop working because I stop working.

Frustration

I've hit this plateau and I bounce up two down two up two down two. The problem is when I follow this diet perfectly I am tired and hungry!!!!!!! Which makes me kinda cranky. (emotional too I think) It has really taught me perspective on food. The other night the tiny tiny Arestin rep...pretty much just picked at her food. Birthday lunch for N' the other day at Robintinos they picked at their salads and ate one maybe two mini slices of their mini pizzas. A' said the only time she has ice cream is if she knows she is going to run 20 miles the next day. I am beginning to think I am warped and my warped relationship with food is why I feel like I have to fight to stay the size I want to be.

Curses - I hate weekends & no going back.

Up until last Friday I was so good I had lost 13.5 pounds and then we went out Friday night..... There was a tinsy bit of dressing on my salad (literally I'm talking 2 tsp.) and some blue cheese crumbles....Sat I had a bite of this and just a bite of that. NO worries I'll be good Sunday. Well Brian decided to sample all of this food storage stuff... a bite here a bite there and then we went for a drive and a sip of coke and another sip of coke. I got on the scale this morning and I had gained four pounds from the previous low. WHAT THE HECK!! I'm back on it today, but it sucks to not eat what I want....especially on the weekends. I know this is a mental thing, but it was a good lesson that even when I am done with this particular diet there is no going back.

Do you think skinny people eat?

I've been doing this 500 calorie a day diet since Sunday and I am down 8.2 pounds. 27.8 to go! Wahoo. I'm not hungry, just stinking tired. I realize I use sugar and caffeine a lot to push through the to-do list. I've come to the conclusion that some are blessed with fast metabolism - good genes..whatever, the rest of the skinny people eat very little and for sure avoid the crap. When this is done can I stick to small portions? Am I strong enough to stay away from the crap for good?

Say Good-bye to Love

Admissions: I had chocolate covered Almonds and Pepsie for breakfast. It tasted great! So why does it have to be so bad for you? In the spirit of support (since it was my big idea for her) I am starting the HCG diet with my sister. The idea is you use this hormone to get the weight of fast with a very low calorie diet and then start exercising and resume a normal healthy diet (that doesn't include choc covered almonds and pepsie...On this diet you can have 2 portions of chicken or fish. Green salad vegies. 2 pieces of fruit (apple, orange, strawberries)and two pieces of melba toast. OOOH yum. I am starting either tomorrow or friday. You get two days of eating all the fatty, sugary stuff you can find and then say adios to all my favorites. Most people drop .8lbs per day. Duration is 40 days. If I drop 32 pounds I will be doing flips. 40 days if you cheat it undoes three days worth of effort. 40 days of being really good. Followed by three weeks of no starches and sugars. So the next time I see any carbonation or chocolate will be 60 plus days from now.

Jeesh

After a perfect day u would think the scale would respond... But I am staying true!!!
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Perfect

Its 1 am but I did my two a day work outs and while I was doing some late night projects I snacked on rice cakes and almonds!!!! I ate perfectly today. I did have one small diet coke. I think I need that for my sanity!!!!
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Attitude

I can do this!!!!!!!
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LOOSER

I lost the bet with Nat, but I have a new contest with myself. No sugar, nothing fried, and 6BFL meals a day from now until Easter. Something has got to make that scale MOVE. Honesty note. This morning during combat I was so embarassed how my arms looked I put my hoodie back on half way through class. ENOUGH! That's pathetic!!! I am also doing two a days Monday through Thursday.....I AM GOING TO LOOSE BIG

Weigh in

175.8
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The contest

Nat and I have a little contest going. For 30 days she can't have fast food, soda or candy. I have to keep my calories between 1200 and 1600 and drink 10 glasses of water. Looser buys Tempanyaki dinner. If we both win we both get to go out and enjoy. I will keep my tally here to keep me honest.
1545 today and
10 glasses of water

Where to begin....

I tried a personal fitness blog before and kept it private. I currently I have one with my siblings that is also private. This one will be public because I am hoping to find the encouragement and accountability to make lasting changes. I want to feel good in my skin. I want to pass by the mirror and be ok. I don't need to be a Victoria Secret model. I have been blessed with a great healthy body...it's just not weight wise where I want it to be. I know this because I don't like to get dressed and I don't like to pass mirrors...and in addition to Remy getting up at night I awake frequently because my back hurts. I wake up and start the day in pain because of the extra weight my back is carrying and my core doesn't have the strength to support it. At this weight I can run, but I don't like it. I am not obese I just need to shred about 18lbs. Even with in 10lbs the back ache goes away...I know this because I've been there. I've never thought of myself as a yo-yo dieter but I guess when it comes to the scale I am a yo yo.. Three babies and stress have caused me to be poster child for the yo yo. November 07 I hit my low of 158 and a size 8 (I am 5'11) I loved it! I had lost 40 pounds from my previous post baby high. Slowly but surely in the past year I've put 20 of that back on. GROSS! gross gross! So if you stumble across this blog. Help me, criticize me, offer a new idea...anything to make it stick this time. So once again we begin. Currently 176...158 here I come!!!!!!