This morning I DID NOT WANNA drag my booty to the pool to swim. I wanted to drop Zoe off at dance at go back home and crawl into bed. The whole 'wanna' thing is for me, about wanting 'it' (feeling good in my skin) bad enough that I'm willing to do what it takes to get there. But what about when I don't want to >>> It's not about even feeling Neutral, it's plain not wanting to do what I know I should be doing. I think this is normal. I think everyone, even Jillian Michaels, (ok maybe NOT Jillian) has times where we don't want to do what we KNOW we should be doing, we WANT to do the very opposite. I think (my hypothesis) is that successful people DO what they should DO, or have planned to DO to reach a goal, even during the times they don't want to.
The next part is for me; to serve as motivation during those times I don't wanna. Between my OBgyn and every office commenting on how 'big' I am or that I look 'so pregnant' I have developed a weight complex. I'm actually considering not attending some up-coming events because of my complex. It's got me thinking..
I don't ever want to feel this way again. Granted pregnancy is an excuse but I never want to carry around 40 extra pounds. With extra weight this is what BUGS: it hurts to move, it hurts to bend over, it hurts to breathe sometimes. I get winded climbing the stairs. My face looks different. My wedding ring is tight. My physical activity with my kids is limited... and the list goes on. I remember a couple of years ago I had dropped about 15lbs right before ski season started. I distinctly remember how good it felt coming down that hill vs. the prior year. I want that feeling back. (I know patience grasshopper, I still need to be pregnant for 5 more weeks).
