Seriously!

I spent the weekend at the Cabin eating everything in sight and drinking all the pop I wanted....came home hopped on the scale and bless us and save us I lost 3 pounds. How the heck does that work? I'm reading Jillian Michael's new book Master your Metabolism. I'll keep you posted.

I wanna be like you ch. #2

I had to run and feed the kids before I finished my last post....Continued shouts out and kudos to Steph because she is the work-out healthy queen and looks smokin hot in a bikini, Megan because she is my height and bone structure and she looks fabulous (thus no height excuses for me) and Leslie because she's a grandma and has killer calves ankles and a tiny tiny waist! Love ALL your bums!!!

I wann be like you.....

So this is my shout out to those I want to be like, because you're doing fabulous work, and look fantastic either via really great genes or working your butt off... Tiff, (29 weeks prego and only gained 14 pounds). Kath,because you're running your butt off and I've never seen you look better. Min, because you've loosing it baby and sticking to your plan. Nat because you go to the gym with me and even though you complain you need an intervention, you have these skinny arms, skinny waist and legs. Katie because you're a buff little thing and I would kill for your pant size. Jenny, Kim and the dozen other girls in my neighborhood, not sure what you do but you look great. FOR THOSE WHO MAY READ THIS. KEEP ME ACCOUNTABLE. BELIEVE IT OR NOT I CAN DO THIS.

That so didn't work....

so much for HCG diet...blah. The first ten days was great! Down 14 pounds - that rocked! Then I began to have a bite of this and a bite of that because I was soooo tired all the time. Then to make matters worse I got a UTI which makes you feel like you have the worlds worst cramps and makes it really hard to want to drink water. Add antibiotic.. need food with antibiotic to not feel sick to my stomach. So here I am ten days from finishing the diet and I've now only lost 9 pounds.. That doesn't rock it sucks! I obviously have commitment issues. I have learned a thing or two about myself. I need food for energy, and I need to exercise for energy, or else my life doesn't run, or I can't run my life at the pace I desire. It is good to feel hungry. I don't do this often enough. I do eat too much and that is going to change. I do need to eat more of the better stuff. I need to commit to what I am eating for the day and stick to it, no choice, I just have to do it. The raw truth is that the $$ I've spent on weight loss for body...all work for a short period of time, and then they stop working because I stop working.

Frustration

I've hit this plateau and I bounce up two down two up two down two. The problem is when I follow this diet perfectly I am tired and hungry!!!!!!! Which makes me kinda cranky. (emotional too I think) It has really taught me perspective on food. The other night the tiny tiny Arestin rep...pretty much just picked at her food. Birthday lunch for N' the other day at Robintinos they picked at their salads and ate one maybe two mini slices of their mini pizzas. A' said the only time she has ice cream is if she knows she is going to run 20 miles the next day. I am beginning to think I am warped and my warped relationship with food is why I feel like I have to fight to stay the size I want to be.

Curses - I hate weekends & no going back.

Up until last Friday I was so good I had lost 13.5 pounds and then we went out Friday night..... There was a tinsy bit of dressing on my salad (literally I'm talking 2 tsp.) and some blue cheese crumbles....Sat I had a bite of this and just a bite of that. NO worries I'll be good Sunday. Well Brian decided to sample all of this food storage stuff... a bite here a bite there and then we went for a drive and a sip of coke and another sip of coke. I got on the scale this morning and I had gained four pounds from the previous low. WHAT THE HECK!! I'm back on it today, but it sucks to not eat what I want....especially on the weekends. I know this is a mental thing, but it was a good lesson that even when I am done with this particular diet there is no going back.