Part two of the first day back

Woops hit send before I finished that last post. Long story short... Its been a good day and starting tomorrow that Scale is gonna move!
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1st Day back to work

Yesterday I went shopping because I literally had nothing to wear to work. (Ok I do have one skirt that fits) After hours of shopping I found one outfit I liked. (Seriously not fun to be shopping when you still have 45 of the 65 lbs you gained while pregnant to loose)....not to mention the styles these days. I've done the leggings thing once in jr High and I have zero desire to ever do it again. And skinny leg pants and Jeans.??? Hmm NO.
So I have my one cute outfit, my hair actually turned out decent. Dani had the kids under control and I was out the door! My nice offices told me I looked great which is good because they may see me in this same outfit for the next 4 weeks! I made the decision to wean the nursing thing down to just night time. Having just made that decision yesterday my boobs are about to explode! Its a good thing the outfit includes a loose fitting short sleeve cardi because my RT could seriously poke someones eye out. Last stop of the day the OB's office for my 6 week check. I hate her darn scale its even worse than the one at home!!!
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Why I Wanna

This morning I DID NOT WANNA drag my booty to the pool to swim. I wanted to drop Zoe off at dance at go back home and crawl into bed. The whole 'wanna' thing is for me, about wanting 'it' (feeling good in my skin) bad enough that I'm willing to do what it takes to get there. But what about when I don't want to >>> It's not about even feeling Neutral, it's plain not wanting to do what I know I should be doing. I think this is normal. I think everyone, even Jillian Michaels, (ok maybe NOT Jillian) has times where we don't want to do what we KNOW we should be doing, we WANT to do the very opposite. I think (my hypothesis) is that successful people DO what they should DO, or have planned to DO to reach a goal, even during the times they don't want to.
The next part is for me; to serve as motivation during those times I don't wanna. Between my OBgyn and every office commenting on how 'big' I am or that I look 'so pregnant' I have developed a weight complex. I'm actually considering not attending some up-coming events because of my complex. It's got me thinking..
I don't ever want to feel this way again. Granted pregnancy is an excuse but I never want to carry around 40 extra pounds. With extra weight this is what BUGS: it hurts to move, it hurts to bend over, it hurts to breathe sometimes. I get winded climbing the stairs. My face looks different. My wedding ring is tight. My physical activity with my kids is limited... and the list goes on. I remember a couple of years ago I had dropped about 15lbs right before ski season started. I distinctly remember how good it felt coming down that hill vs. the prior year. I want that feeling back. (I know patience grasshopper, I still need to be pregnant for 5 more weeks).

H.A.L.T.

Copied from msn's home page about how to think like a skinny girl:
Add the word "halt" to your vocabulary, says Gallagher. More than just a command (as in stop eating that entire sleeve of cookies), it's an acronym that stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired -- the four most common triggers for emotional eating.
If you're truly hungry, eat a balanced snack, such as a handful of nuts, to tide you over until your next meal. But if you're angry, lonely, or tired, seek an alternative, calorie-free solution to your emotional need. Blow off steam by going for a run or just jumping around - the heartbeat boost will help dissipate your anger. Lonely? Call a friend, e-mail your kid, or walk to the park or mall. Being around others will make you feel more connected to your community (even if you don't bump into anyone you know). If you're tired, for heaven's sake, sleep!

But what if you're pregnant and just really craving those peanut butter chocolate bars?

Loving motivation from a spouse

Last weekend Brian comes walking in the kitchen and says to me, "This Spudman isn't that far away, you've got to get on it!" I'm limping around because of my SI pain and I've got to 'get on it'. FINE swimming is the one thing that doesn't aggravate my pain, other than getting my lazy bum to the pool. My goal for this week was 3 good days of exercise regardless of what my pain level was and 2 of the 3 needed to be pool days. I did it! Next week I'll go for 4 maybe.

Baffled

I really believe the scale is possessed. I've worked out maybe 5 times in the past month. I've pretty much been eating like crazy because food finally sounds good. I just spent 2 days in Las Vegas and the calories eaten in Vegas I'm sure Did Not stay in Vegas and I stepped on the scale at the Obgyn and I haven't gained anything in 4 weeks. Crazy!
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Give up?

I've been dressed to exercise since breakfast this morning. It hasn't happened. I've done everything but that. Its almost 3pm I really should get dressed for the day, and maybe put on some lipstick.
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